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I'd moved.

New

I'm left with no emotion now.

Congrats.

Prelim Examination - English Paper 2 - Summary (Draft)

No, I don't have any sleeping deprivation. I just need some breaky-break to get away from all these prelim papers and what-nots. It was manageable but when the big hoo-ha days are over, that would be really awesome. And then I can resume my adolescent life like any other sane 17 year olds would.

Oh, I LOVE LAURA LAINE. GOOGLE HER! Swear, she's major in fashion illustration.

I'm sorry, but I just have to let it out to you in the most reasonable way I could. I can't. Enough said.

I can't live my life with all these negative rebukes, with all these demeaning comments, with all these pressure and impulses to lead me into something that I don't want to get involved at all. You're such a sweet and intellectual being. But I just can't see myself being with someone so dominantly aggressive with my feelings. It sounds corny, it sounds lame, and it certainly sounds bloody emo to you. But I don't give a flying fuck. I'm an adolescent with emotions, not a sex blow-up toy.
I don't commit myself to be in a relationship with you to take all the crap that you are able to bombard me with. I'm just there to be with you who I though would care for me, be there for me when I have a breakdown, comfort me, being spontaneously romantic and not just showing approval through mere solid gestures and silent awes.


Call me virginal, naive, sexually inactive, infantile nimrod. I will not care. Cause like you perceived, I'm nothing to you but a piece of flesh. True enough, I am a person with a paucity of being in love.  You once told me, Don't get yourself involve into this relationship with having high hopes. I don't. Because experience had taught me that in life, you won't get anything you want or deserve in the end. It's not your duty as a lover to pet my feelings but as a role of a human being, you ought to do so. And you didn't.

If you ever to chance upon this post, don't hesitate to not call me or contact me in anyway. To recapitulate;
you're just an ephemeral phenomena.
I really hope you get yourself into a relationship where you can literally fall in love with. I guess I'm not the one for you though.
Oh well.

Yours Truly,
Fariz J

editted: thank you for the virtual hugs

My eyes are swelling from emotional deprivation.
My brain is aching with a nasty fever.
I am in a much of a foul mood to procrastinate and not study.
I feel pathetic, hopeless, unhappy, belittled and all of the above mentioned.
It's not one of those best mixture of physical and emotional exhaustion when fasting month is around the corner.
High hopes, big dreams, will all soon be tarnished.
I can't afford to have high expectations during this awfully, crucial moments of my life on something I know I will not get it at the end (although how much I want it so). It's just a mere facade, I guess.


A facade that I hope, one day, would be a reality for my sake, not yours.




(AWMAGAWD, GIMME A MOTHER-FUCKING PANADOL!)

Just once, just once,

I wanna be in Love.










But somehow, I just can't.

Oohmagawd!!!
OK, Zara, a Spanish chain store that has a gazzilion shops around the bloody globe, had just released their first two photos for the Fall/Winter Catalogue Campaign.
AND! Sasha Pivovarova is in IT! ARGH! First, it was Hilary Rhoda for 2007's Fall/Winter. And now SASHA! Mind you, both are the upcoming top ten supermodels (as acclaimed in US Vogue Mag after the death of the "Supermodel" period).

Wahduh, I am soooo going back to work at the end of the year!

Urban, an addtional issue with the Straits Times that comes out weekly, did a feature on those ever-stylish fashionistas on the street to illustrate a point that Singapore isn't just Merlions and Mas Selamat but a fashion capital (or soon to be).
I honestly love Urban. I don't say that because I'm in it. It's like Vogue, except its really cheap, doesn't do editorial campaigns and it's isn't as glossy as those high-fashion mag. But truth is, it's a great essential for those who's on the move and love Fashion as much as I do (or practically doesn't have time to buy those overrated mags with their 9-5 clock outs).

Thank you for participating in the Direct Polytechnic Admission (DPA) exercise. We have received many DPA applications this year, and are heartened to read about your talents and interest in an applied education at the polytechnics.

In order to pick the most deserving DPA applicants, we have been strict in our selection criteria. We looked through all the DPA applications, considered the various portfolios and write-ups submitted by applicants, and interviewed selected applicants to further assess their talents and interests in the polytechnic courses they applied to. For certain polytechnic courses, we also requested applicants to sit for our aptitude tests.

We have given serious consideration to your DPA application. Unfortunately, we regret to inform you that you have not been selected for placement in one of the polytechnics under the DPA exercise.

Nevertheless, we encourage you to continue pursuing your interest in an applied education at the polytechnics. We have always enjoyed teaching students like yourself who aspire to realise your potential through our polytechnic education. You can apply to our polytechnic courses via the Joint Admission Exercise (JAE) and Joint Polytechnic Special Admission Exercise (JPSAE) conducted after the release of the GCE ‘O’ Level results. More information on these admission exercises can be found on the polytechnics' websites.

We thank you again for your interest, and wish you all the best in your studies.

Those mofos. I can't practically blurt out my anger through verbal abuse in this blog. I can't afford to fork out thousands of dollars or even spend my time in jail if I was caught discriminating their so called 'strict criteria'. But I can say this;

This is FUCKING BULLSHIT

Enough said. Oh, B3 for Malay. Whoopie...